[ One hand gently runs through the curly mess of hair on Gamzee's head, teeth grit behind smiling lips. It hurts. Everything, everything about this hurts. The smile on Gamzee's face rips at something raw and dark in his heart and it's all he can do to squash down those feelings and keep the tears from brimming in his eyes.
The kiss he leaves on Gamzee's forehead is chaste and sweet.
He smells it. God. It makes his stomach roll and his hands clench reflexively at his moirail's back. He rests his chin on top of his head, draws in a deep breath through his nose, and tries to be the level headed one for once in their long relationship. He knows what Rufio is saying and what Rufio wants, he knows that this is the sort of place that he could lose himself in because all of the colors and none of the consequences but he can't he can't he can't.
Gamzee needs help. No one has found a cure yet, but that doesn't mean no one will. Maybe... Maybe when he dies, before he wakes up, he could give him a kiss and wake his dream self up... or has that too become rotten and wrong? He hasn't slept long enough to know if he's seeing the golden city or the dark, cramped space of a dream bubble. ]
I know that, Nepeta is too quick. And, maybe she found Karkat... and if they're with Sollux, then, nothing can touch them. [ his voice is wavering. the pauses between words are long, he's fighting back everything to try to maintain some level of calm and cool. ]
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[ One hand gently runs through the curly mess of hair on Gamzee's head, teeth grit behind smiling lips. It hurts. Everything, everything about this hurts. The smile on Gamzee's face rips at something raw and dark in his heart and it's all he can do to squash down those feelings and keep the tears from brimming in his eyes.
The kiss he leaves on Gamzee's forehead is chaste and sweet.
He smells it. God. It makes his stomach roll and his hands clench reflexively at his moirail's back. He rests his chin on top of his head, draws in a deep breath through his nose, and tries to be the level headed one for once in their long relationship. He knows what Rufio is saying and what Rufio wants, he knows that this is the sort of place that he could lose himself in because all of the colors and none of the consequences but he can't he can't he can't.
Gamzee needs help. No one has found a cure yet, but that doesn't mean no one will. Maybe... Maybe when he dies, before he wakes up, he could give him a kiss and wake his dream self up... or has that too become rotten and wrong? He hasn't slept long enough to know if he's seeing the golden city or the dark, cramped space of a dream bubble. ]
I know that, Nepeta is too quick. And, maybe she found Karkat... and if they're with Sollux, then, nothing can touch them. [ his voice is wavering. the pauses between words are long, he's fighting back everything to try to maintain some level of calm and cool. ]